Friday, June 09, 2006

dog face

Dogs of war and men of hate
With no cause, we don't discriminate
Discovery is to be disowned
Our currency is flesh and bone
Hell opened up and put on sale
Gather 'round and haggle
For hard cash, we will lie and deceive
Even our masters don't know the webs we weave

One world, it's a battleground
One world, and we will smash it down
One world ... One world

Invisible transfers, long distance calls,
Hollow laughter in marble halls
Steps have been taken, a silent uproar
Has unleashed the dogs of war
You can't stop what has begun
Signed, sealed, they deliver oblivion
We all have a dark side, to say the least
And dealing in death is the nature of the beast

One world, it's a battleground
One world, and we will smash it down
One world ... One world

The dogs of war don't negotiate
The dogs of war won't capitulate,
They will take and you will give,
And you must die so that they may live
You can knock at any door,
But wherever you go, you know they've been there before
Well winners can lose and things can get strained
But whatever you change, you know the dogs remain.

One world, it's a battleground
One world, and we will smash it down
One world ... One world
(david glimour of pink floyd, circa 1985)

i have recently come to the conclusion that i am a dog of war...
and have always been.

if you were to name any context from life, it would only take me a second to name my other self, my known adversary, my goldstein, my snowball, the ying for my yang. in every phase of my life and in every relational context i can identify one- always just one- on whom i blame my pain, for whom i have only disdain, in whom i am perpetually disappointed and against whom i wage an ongoing and unwinnable war.

having one extreme opposition- a bizarro around which all other relationships fall into place as positive- has allowed me, in seeing the worst in the one to see the best in all others. it appears as though, for me, balance and stability have always existed in the stalemate.

the structure holds together well until one of the dogs lets go of his end of the bone. suddenly there is a hole and, in granting forgiveness, i find myself bereft of both convenient villain and comfortable balance.

the challenge is to be on guard, lest i create from my existing relationships a brand new adversary in order to bring my world back into balance and release me from the change that is imminent.

this is why i commit war crimes in perpetuity. it's circle maintenance.

to break the cycle? i must be of greater things, that my actions and relationships would be of positive eternal consequence. if i cannot break my adversarial nature, then i must choose for myself an adversary who is ultimately as stubborn as i am. my chosen villain must be the personification of all negativity. with him and him alone must i contend.

not to presume to be able to wage war against him on any power i might call my own, but to, by God's power, wrestle not against flesh and blood but against principalities, powers, against forces of darkness in this world, against self-serving wickedness in the spiritual realm that is enacted here, using regular people as instruments of torture upon their own countrymen.

after all, every action has an equal and opposite reaction
(sir isaac newton)

*note: the photo above was taken by an american soldier last year in the war against iraq- however, it is important to note that this is NOT an american tactic. in this kind of war, it is typical to wire a dead animal up with explosives that are set off by remote control- the person with the remote just has to push a button. when you have a bomb in your belly, anyone is a potential victim- it just depends on when your buttons get pushed and who is nearby when it happens .

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Blogger Cinder said...

"when you have a bomb in your belly, anyone is a potential victim- it just depends on when your buttons get pushed and who is nearby when it happens."

this is so very true. it's a huge task to learn to know when the bomb is there and equip yourself with the tools in order to diffuse it, without blowing away innocent bystanders because they pushed a button, especially one they didn't even know they pushed. or i guess in a last resort state, at least knowing the bomb's there and choosing to remove yourself from the path of innocent bystanders, so at least you minimalize the explosion into an implosion...hurting yourself, but at least sparing the hurt of others.

more importantly, it's learning to know the triggers and then dismantling the bomb before it even gets there...that though is a lot easier to type than to do sometimes...i'm definitely not one to talk on this subject, as i know i'm a dog of war and probably always have been.

Blogger SocietyVs said...

War is being waged here with the 'principalities and powers' of this world, note THIS WORLD.
Funny thing, I was talking with my brother Wednesday about what are real problems facing us? Is it homoesexuality? We figure not really. Is it Muslims? I still figure no. The problem is the ideas out there that exist already, just waiting for the 'push of a button'.
I mean a literal push too. We have a gov't just south of us with enuff bombs to create a virtual hell on earth, and no one shakes 2 sticks at that idea. Yet they are the same gov't trying to 'police' the world, how soon before they go too far, if they haven't already.
We see another vietnam in our midst and apparently colonialism still exists, just in the Middle East now. We watch on tv as reporters say they caught Al-Zachari and he was alive when they caught him, but at least he suffered before death. The church exists to fight over some moral issues while others we just ignore. The other problems like poverty (in ghetto's/hoods), world hunger, business globalization that creates a waste (ex: Wal-Mart takes from China to get rich, giving little back) one mentions how evil capitalism and the colonialisitic attitude can still be.
I am a 'dog of war', I was born into this battle and born with a voice. It's called self-righteous if you think democratic societies aren't criminal.

Blogger Internet Street Philosopher said...

Poor dog, and also our worst enemies are within ourself and only God can help us. Your post was incredible! Come by the blog later, alright?

Blogger curious servant said...

It's a dark world. We need to remember to hold each other accountable, to hold each other up, to hold each other close, to hold each other together. That is why we are called the body.

Nice post.

Blogger jollybeggar said...

CS- nice comment.
"to hold each other close, to hold each other together"

paraphrasing colossians 2.18-19?

with regard to our relational responsibility, i find this much more encouraging than proverbs 27.17!!!

Blogger SocietyVs said...

I preached on Sunday at the FN Alliance and I referenced you, 'using regular people as instruments of torture upon their own countrymen' in relation to the 'battle' around us. I used Ephesians 6:10-18 and Matthew 23:23 as background for the talk on 'focusing our energies for the fight'.
Basically, the talk was about shooting down the ideas of the devil that are being seeded in society. Also, to focus personally and not let ourselves buy into 'ideas' that will cause desruction.
I took some of that from this blog and some from my brother, who is in Political Science at the U of R. It was a talk about 'focus' and who is the real enemy? We also discussed what are the real issues for the church to face in 21st Century America?
Needless to say, I learn a lot from others and I mix it with what I have experienced, thus giving me a broader perspective in issues. Thanks guys, gotta love blogging.

Blogger jollybeggar said...

"I learn a lot from others and I mix it with what I have experienced, thus giving me a broader perspective in issues. Thanks guys, gotta love blogging."

i hear you. i am often referencing bloggers because they are regular people trying to articulate specific moments in their regular journey, from which we can all grow in some way.

may sound lame, but once i even referenced 'jollybeggar' in a sermon because God had really poured some insight into me on something and i thought it might be a distraction to 'quote myself...' quoting the jollybeggar allowed people to deal with the ideas at face value as written by someone living life on this planet and trying to embrace some meaning from it: the author was not the point, except that all truth is God's truth anyway!

the whole idea of interacting with life and giving different aspects of our personality a voice in the ongoing dialogue is not a particularly new one anyway...

herman melville, a believer in Christ writing the epic tale of obsessive revenge called 'moby dick' gave voice to some of the darkest aspects of his own character in creating people like ahab and queequeg.

likewise, in 'the brothers karamazov', fyodor dostoevsky gave words to his deepest cynicisms and heaviest questions in creating the classic story within a story section called 'the grand inquisitor'... not to mention characters like the three very unlike brothers in the story: dmitry the sensualist, ivan the intellectual and alyosha the mystic.

nikos kazantzakis, in his great book 'the last temptation' tells his own story by aligning his own struggles for identity and purpose in life with the story of Jesus' ministry years, explaining in his introduction that:

"struggle between the flesh and the spirit, rebellion and resistance, reconcilliation and submission, and finally- the supreme purpose of the struggle- union with God: this was the ascent taken by Christ, the ascent which he invites us to take as well, following in his bloody tracks... Christ pass through all the stages which the man who struggles passes through. that is why his suffering is so familiar to us: that is why we share it, and why his final victory seems to us so much our own future victory. that part of Christ's nature which was profoundly human helps us to understand him and love him and to pursue his passion as though it were our own... we struggle, we see him struggle also, and we find strength. we see that we are not all alone in the world: he is fighting at our side."

point? let's all pay attention when God speaks, regardless of whom he uses as a mouthpiece, yeah?


Blogger jollybeggar said...

by the way... thank you, SVS.

don't think i actually said that, i just went off on a tangent...

Blogger SocietyVs said...

Still, knowledge is knowledge and sometimes it's the very people around you that can provide an insight into a struggle, which I find in a lot of people's writings on here. It may be an on-line community but it is giving real-life answers and moments. No need to even thank me, I just appreciate what is being said around me.


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